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01 Feb 2020 20:50 PST
talks
id rather not have talks like that in public.
i know i edited my journal to say i "hate" pedos, i want to further properly explain
i "hate" those that actively indulge in the act of doing anything to children. the reason is, when i was 6, a high school bully "played" with me on the bus everyday. i grew an addiction to it, for reasons i to this day dont understand. (as i had a strong relationship with my parents (the typical go to "this is why" thing)).
since i was about 7, i managed to indulge my addiction with every single one of my friends up until the age of 17. all of my friends being of the same, or very close, same age as me. but, the addiction had its effects on me. to this day, its this addiction that draws me to cubs/loli/shota. to this day, its the addiction that makes me look at and eye undress kids. however, despite the addiction, its the things i went through that makes me hate those that actually commit such things. while all we did was oral and touching, and i continued this on my own with my friends, i know from personal feelings what i, and those kind of people WANT to do and it sickens me. even if no physical harm is done, physiological harm surely was. and again, i was lucky.
there is one further thing that this addiction has done to me. it is, legitimately, difficult for me to remember my real age and thus say it. ask me what my real age is, and i will immediately respond with "7", before pausing for a long moment and saying "24". just typing this line took me close to 3 minutes as i had to think so hard.
this all being said, i am a strong believer in natural behavior. whether God fearing or an evolutionist, humans are designed to start reproduction at young teen ages. i do not condone adult on teen acts, but i strongly encourage teen on teen so long as its done safely
so now you know my history, and i know yours.
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01 Feb 2020 21:08 PST
Re: talks
Well, it seems like your experiences started negatively, and not exactly consensually. I've never actually been sexually active with anyone, but I've talked to people who have, and for a lot of them experimenting with other kids was a very positive thing for them.
I definitely am sexually attracted to irl kids, however I firmly disagree that what I want to do with them is at all bad. I can't say what you want, maybe you struggle with violent urges, and if so you have my sympathy, but I definitely *don't.* I only want to do things that would feel good for the kid, and their body is the proper shape and size for. While I do not hae any plans to actually act on it, that's because I really do believe that any of the psychological harm that may happen even in cases where it's consensual and gentle is from what happens when it's "found out" as well as the stigma.
For me "natural behavior: is a meaningless nonsense term. Morality is determined solely by whether something is harmful. not whether it's "natural" which is wholly irrelevant. While it's true that the hormonal sex drive usually starts in early teen years, that's hardly the only reason to want or enjoy sex
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01 Feb 2020 21:19 PST
morality is what is irrelevant. only humans consider morality, therefor its a human construct. much like how a fence rots over time, morality does too if pushed to the extreme. nature, on the other hand, does not fail, falter or give a shit what someone thinks. nature just does what is best for the survival of the species.
take the Fire Island in Russia as example. over 4000 people sent to a tiny, frozen island as "punishment" for being apposed to the government back in the early 1900. after a mere 4 days, "morality" lost all meaning, as people murdered, ate, and raped each other. not out of will, these people where civil, law abiding people. they did nothing wrong, besides voicing their concern over the government. but nature dictated, Kill, Eat, Survive. and so little over 200 people did just that.
i see we have different opinion on things, and it's likely best we leave it.
i will say though, it was interesting meeting someone like you. so long as you keep in check, i couldnt care less what you are into. fuck, there are people that literally have sexual drive for lamp posts and other such silly things. what ever gets you off, so long as nothing comes by it (in their case, frozen to the poll or damage to the poll xP)
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